I haven't posted in some time because I was busy and couldn't be bothered haha.
But now it is May and I feel like I should write some things down. As has become regiment on this blog I will go through each individual aspect of my life at the moment and discuss it.
College. Well I'm still working away at college and I'm loving it at the moment. I have completed the main section of my Graded Unit. For this so far I have received A,A,A,B,A and I'm hoping for another A for the final section. This (I hope) would amount to an overall A, which I would be extremely happy and proud of. At present we are rehearsing for our last production 'The Persecution and Assassination of Jean-Paul Marat as Performed by the Inmates of the Asylum of Charenton Under the Direction of the Marquis de Sade' or as we are calling it, Marat/Sade. I have been given the part of Coulmier who is the director of the Asylum. At first I was really pissed off about this because I felt this posed no challenge to me. However, since we have started rehearsing I have quickly come to love the part. I'm enjoying working with the dialogue, making sense of it for myself and then saying it to make others understand it. Also, my idea of this being no challenge has quickly been revoked as I have to not only shout (which I haven't really done in any of my productions) but I have to be in command and portray an authority figure. Now, for those who know me and my look would say that this would challenge me as I'm don't embody these characteristics much, but that is the job of an actor and I'm glad I don't embody them as it gives me the chance to prove to myself and my lecturers that indeed I can play something other than nervous and a bit funny. So, as I mentioned this is our last production and not only does it signal the end of the year, it also signals the end of my time at Reid Kerr College. This is my last year there and it has only hit me this evening the extremity of this situation. You see, there is another year I could do which is a top up degree year, which allow me to leave with a degree, assuming I passed. Now I did apply and received an audition date, however I slowly came to realise, the more I heard about the course, that it was in my best interests. This was largely due to the volume of written work. I have so far spent 3 years doing a mixture of acting and theory and now I'm feeling prepared to work solely on practical, however this course would not offer me this chance as we would have essays to hand in and a 7000 word dissertation. This put me off completely. It's not that I don't want to do written work but at the moment I would prefer to do acting rather than write about it. So I have came to the momentous decision that my place in the course would be wasteful to myself so I have retracted my application and decided to go into the 'big, bad world'. This also comes with a great amount of worry and anxiety. This is due to not having proper representation, not necessarily the kiss of death to my career but it does somewhat mean my own personal efforts have to be a lot stronger. I'll admit that this has put the fear of god into me but at the same time I feel that I am best to just jump in and get started. Helping me is the experience I have gained since March in short films. I have shot two short films one in Galston and another in Dunbar and this week I have been notified that I was 'the strongest candidate for the part' in a film to be shot in the Caledonia Hilton Hotel in Edinburgh. I am very excited about this because it means I get to film for two days in a really nice hotel in Edinburgh, unfortunately I don't get to stay in it but to be in and about it will suffice I suppose. I was extremely excited about receiving this part, as I love the script and really wanted to be part of it. As well as getting the part my confidence took a boost because of the part of the e-mail I mentioned (the strongest candidate for the part). This made me think, "I can do this, and there is a place for me out there". As I wasn't too sure that I would have parts out there for me but seeing that the last two short films I have shot, I have been the main character I feel that there is something other than "the friend of the main character" type part. I also, realised that as of June I would officially class myself as 'An Actor' rather than just 'an actor in training'. So it will soon be my time to get out there and start looking for more work. It is comforting to know that I have experience behind me, as my acting experience is by and large stronger than my normal work CV that doesn't read too well. So I believing that I have the ability to do it will increase my chances of getting work as well as not being too bothered about the type of film. The thing is I would like to try different things so I can say that I have tried them and to see what works best for me and I enjoy. So here's hoping that I have a positive future and can call myself a jobbing actor.
I will not be writing about normal work in this post, as I don't want to get on a downer about it. Fact is, I still haven't found a permanent job but may have one soon. Here's hoping as well.
Ok I will go now and update of the rest of my goings on later as I am tired.
Speak again soon.
